Thursday, July 27, 2006

Almost there...

at the quarter-life crisis. Oh, it's real. I've talked to friends going through it. And since my recent conversion to a 24-year-old, I've tasted a bit of it. Turning 24 honestly made me feel a little old and caused me to quickly assess my life so far: what I've accomplished, what I have of worth, and what I'm without. Then it made me assess what others may or may not perceive about me.

People consider me an adult. That's crazy.

What qualifies a person as "grown-up"? Is there an efficiency exam or some type of baseline values to be reached? I'm not sure how well I'd do on that.

Just a few years ago, I was still staying up all night, cutting up with college roommates when I should have been studying for finals. The questions I ask about life and love haven't changed that much since that time. Have I become a more keen observer or am I just looking at different things now?

My friends now have real jobs. They pay mortgages. Some have kids. Some are being given the opportunity to teach children in school. These are all huge responsibilities. When do you know you can handle it? When you're there? in the midst of it?

I'm gonna chalk my perceived childishness up to being adventurous and carry it proudly. I'll always be a learner, so my mind won't often rest. The point of stability beneath it all is that I know WHO holds it all. And in Him, all things hold together (Col. 1:17). I don't have to be or have accomplished "something" in the eyes of men (or in my own!) to have worth. He's done more than validate me. He's loved me as I am. The more I can lay hold of that, the less time I'll spend on futile questions.


Anna said...

I turned 25 at the end of June and can hardly believe it. I have friends that are building houses! how did we get so old!?!?
Happy late birthday, by the way :)

Daron said...

I know I'm only 19, but I am already thinking about what it will be like to be considered an "adult." It makes me a little concerned, let me tell you. Haha. I just wonder if there is a class or something I can take on being a "grown-up," because I feel like I'm going to be completely clueless!

Anonymous said...

I'm suprised you are just coming to this now. You have been an adult since you were born. Happy late bithday to the least care free person I know. Don't be mad at me anymore please. Love Zach

Anonymous said...

Lauren...Lauren...there is no defining of an adult. Even people who are considered in that category are horrible at it. Look at how many "adults" rack up debt, divorce, etc...I really don't think it is anything to be nervous about; life at any age is about learning, making choices, and living to see the results of those choices. Heck, with age comes the responsibilites that were overlooked as a kid...marriage, parenting, finances, really was alot easier back in the day, but do i act like an adult now that i have some of the previously mentioned responsibilities??? you know me, i will always be a big kid...just with a few more responsibilities. ya!

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