Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Almost Leap Time

It's partially because I'm a slacker and partially due to a lack of worthy material, but I haven't blogged in a bit. Life's kinda flipped since I've been working down in the ER. My shift is 2 to 10:30 p.m., which I actually like. I'm definitely built to function well during this time of day. I even have time to hit the gym in the morning. But it does preclude most of my regular social interaction. It's hard to set aside time in the morning before work to call the family and friends, as well as run all the necessary errands during normal working hours. I will actually be working four 10's on an evening shift like this when I get through with my residency. We'll see how that goes.

All in all, things have been going well here. I've had some great times with friends on the weekends. Drove up to Snoqualmie on a beautiful sunny day where I got to watch the snow melting off the majestic peaks. (Do I sound like a Deep Thought by Jack Handy yet?) Then I came back and threw the frisbee near a local beach here in Tacoma. How many places in the world have that to offer? See snow-covered mountains within an hour's drive and then drive over to a beautiful waterfront in the same area? It just reiterated my number 1 reason for loving Tacoma.

On a more serious note, I'm still reading through Matthew and following the story of Jesus, and I can't help but be impacted by the reality that He was here for the broken. Every time. And it required that the individual realize their brokenness before He could change them. Because the Truth is that we're all broken. The Pharisees didn't know that, though. His hometown didn't know that they were either. As a result, He didn't minister too long or very much in these crowds. But the broken...Wow. The people who recognized Who He was would bring the dirty, the sick, the possessed in droves. And He would effortlessly change lives. It makes me think about a few things:
  1. Is His ability to change me dependent on my realization of my brokenness without Him? If so, a greater recognition of who I was before Him or who I would be without Him AND (don't forget this part; it's just as important) Who He is/what He can do would revolutionize my heart. It would completely reconstruct my outlook.
  2. What is my hope for the brokenness I see around me? Do I believe He can change them? Do I pray for them in the hopes that He will?
  3. How do I respond to brokenness around me? Do I look for opportunities to take Jesus there? or do I try to just minister to people or in places that are clean, easy, and comfortable?
Jesus didn't place comfort anywhere in His list of priorities. I don't have anything remotely similar to His omniscience, but I don't think seeing the end result was required before initiating the process. I don't know if I'm explaining this well, but I know my biggest obstacles are the limits of my own faith. I don't have to have things figured out to be obedient. God doesn't ask that of me. That's my own safety mechanism that directly inhibits me from living up to my fullest potential in Him. Regardless of what statistics show, of precedents set, of my past behavior, God is still God. And He's limited by nothing, even in a life and a heart like mine.


The Williams said...

hey, lauren! i just caught up on your blog via ginger. ha! anyway, i'm so glad things are going well for you. it sounds like the Lord is doing amazing things and teaching you amazing truths. that is SO good. i'll pray that He continues to do that ;) love ya girl!

Esther said...

beautiful post Lauren! I recall struggling in college and emailing this Bible teacher about all my frustrations down to the very last detail pretty much in the form of a NOVEL. She wrote me two lines, basically instructing me to read the story of Jesus. over. and over. and over again. and just understand his life. wow. I was not expecting that. That was in the day and age I was consumed with reading self-help books, etc. seriously. what was I thinking :P

I love how you can't help but see the very thing He wants you to see! Every time.

I recall meeting up with a homeless couple and trying to understand their situation so I could "solve" it. I realized it was a very humanistic standpoint for the most part. That evening at church, I took some notes:

(Thoughts leading up during Lent)
It's more about WHO HE IS...Our response-- not our condition-- because of His mercy-- (Psalm 51) Have mercy on me, O God, according to your unfailing love... Again, because of WHO HE IS. In John 3, we come across a Pharisee-- people who particularly strove in their humanness. "If we could just be good enough..put our lives together..our own attempts..."

I think you nailed it--you said the dirty, the possessed --they were people who recognized "WHO HE WAS."

2. YES! That is the kingdom of God on earth-- on earth as it is in heaven. His will. If you don't mind, I have some class notes on my blog that really changed my perspective and truly challenged me.:

3. Your response? When you bring up the polar extremes of opportunities to take Jesus or the clean, easy places? what do you mean? Are you talking about the place where God has currently called you versus the "dirty places?" (not saying the place you are called isn't dirty) As for comfort:

(lol, not that I know everything or that you have time to read the links to those two particular blogs.. but I'm just throwing it out to you!--which I would email it, but why not share?)

Thank you for sharing your heart! What a powerful, moving post. Great questions. I encourage you as a sister to keep asking them!!

Esther said...

on comfort

class notes on the kingdom of God